Its a Great Day to be alive...

So Ive had so much going on I have neglected my little blog..sorry :/ so up to update! 1**SCHOOL! Im currently a senior Healthcare Administration student with about 8 months left before I graduate. I am SO ready to say I have 2 college degrees. Its something I wanted a long time and worked even harder for. so BAM! Hard work pays off..................................... 2**MOVE!! We moved from Alabama to Jacksonville, Florida June 2. It was freaking amazingly hot the day we packed that 26 ft UHaul. My beautiful mom and dad surprised us by showing up on our doorstep at 730AM to help us pack, <3 <3 amazing parents. Between them and a few other beautiful friends who love us, we had that entire house EMPTY and clean in 5 hours. :D We stayed at his parents that night (exhausted) then headed East early. Shocker #2, his dad knew it was just Jim and I to unload this thing, sooooo he called in to work and came with us to pull the boat. Again, Amazing parents. I swear we won the In Law lottery. Our litle caravan of Jim and the HUGE Uhaul..me in his truck...Trav pulling our boat..dang gypsy line. haha! But7 hours later we reached our new little home and within 3 days I had this thing UNpacked by God. It is now a home. I still get lost...well..ALOT...but keep me within a 10-15 mile radius Im ok. LOL Im learning to love it and understand I am a bit tougher than I thought. The pups are happy *after a week of freaking out* and we are happy. This past Tuesday was our TWO YEAR anniversary..and I have never been happier. Yes Marriage is work, but it is work I would not give up for anything. I have my Prince Charming and I love it every single day. His job at Shands is AMAZING! Working at a level 1 Trauma Center has truly opened his RN eyes I think haha. He will be fine, hes a smartie ;) .................................3**Adoption. Ok this is always a doozy. Its kinda strange. Its like it is sudenly VERY much weighing on me every day. i dont think a day went by these past 3 weeks Ihave not thought "I have to be a mom..I have to be a mom..". My hormones? Body? Brain? Who knows. But I DO know its important. Jim and I have made a list of adoption agencies and lawyers here and this week the phone calls begin. Im ready. We are ready. My dear friend Jenn who is herself infertile started their adoption hunt last summer and as I stood in line to go into the Anberlin concert last night sent me 4 pictures of her and her sweet usband and their new son, William. I am SO amazingly over the moon for them. That child is SO very blessed to have that mom an dad who have wanted nothign more this past year. Really. Lucky. Baby. Its an odd feeling you never get used to I dont think. Happiness mixed with grief is the only way I can put it. I am so happy for them but my heart was broken also. Being in public I had to suck it up. Bless my sweet Jim he just knew I was upset though and between the forehead kisses and 'baby i love yous' I made it back to happy dana. Its a battle. I am just trying to win the war. Its so overwhelming. We are REALLY doing this. The feet are about to hit the ground running. I was meant to be a mommy. I just know it. More than anything I have ever known. I try not to whine about it too much..dont want to annoy everyone so I come here to whine. fair play right? :) I have everything amazing in my life except for that. In the end they spent roughly $15,000. o.O. yea. Somehow. Someway I have to make it happen. I have no clue what Im doing. I dont have rich friends..I dont do well asking for donations. I have a savings of where I had the yard sale last year but anywhere near 15 grand? nah. So I remain hopeful though. it WILL happen. I know there will be setbacks. But I have to keep my head up. If its weighing suddenly THIS heavy on my heart, maybe, just maybe that means it is almost MY time. I choose to believe that. I DO believe that. Also We have decided we will NOT be telling anyone but family as it goes. Until we have a baby IN our arms, there will be no facebook updates on it. no pictures. just want it to be a family event for whatever up or down comes. Jessica, this means you will be ahead of the curve as they say lol..:) So on ward we go..

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Ok so between moving and 500 other things I forgot my password..but  back I am!! Lots to update but currently headed to the chiropractor lol later ill make a long one :)