Raindrops fallin' on my head...

I know..Ive totally been NEGLECTING my little blog..so sorry..:(
on a high note, we JUST got back from vacationing in Orlando FL at Universal Studios for our *drumroll* FIRST ANNIVERSARY! it was GREAT. God, I love that man. Sappy sappy me, but I do thank heaven for him every day. I, my friends, and a lucky girl..
as for our IVF junk..we completed and faxed out basal temp log last night, so within the next 48 hours, he will be calling me to schedule bloodwork and an ultrasound. from THAT we will assuredly know, IF (the big scary IF) we will be able to have 'our' child. Im honestly trying not to stress about it but really...
how can I not?
My attempt at motherhood hinges on this stupid bloodwork. I need my FSH to be HIGH!! *sigh* come on follicles...you can do it...please do..
Anyway, I have to awake my slumbering husband (working night shift ya know) and cook dinner...there is so much more coming in the next few weeks..keep me in your thoughts dear readers..


oh and Im thinking of starting to sell Thirty One..I like to think my friends would purchase it..heck, I like it..and itd be a GREAT part time job for me while Im in school..hm,...more to come guys..hopefully GOOD more to come..<3 Im FINALLY going to know unequivically wether or not I can be a mom to my own child. Its bad enough I can not carry it myself but heres to hoping someone else can..*fingers crossed*

Sometimes you need an outlet..

lawd, it is too early to be all mad already..lol I actually have quite a wonderful day ahead...going Snapper fishing for the FIRST time! :D yay! taking our boat out 15 miles..whew!! anyway, so on to the irritant of the am...
I log in facebook and a friend of mine always poses these great questions for people to chime in on..the question of the day was 'would you ever donate an egg to someone so they could have a baby'..first response?? "Absolutely Not! Thatd be like giving my own baby away!'..

*sigh*

lets hear it for the mis informed. its not a fertilized egg. its like giving dna to someone so they can have a baby since they obviously cant. REALLY. This just really bothers me. After dealing with this so far, the not being able to have your own  kids, i have heard it all. and THIS. Is.Selfishness. very much so. say you woldnt feel comfortable with it. its not for you. THAT is okay, really. But to say Absolutely not, no way, its my kid?! that is selfish. And its not the first time I have heard it. I guarantee she has never been faced with a best friend of family member who can not carry their own and has to rely on others. Its not easy to say hey Im a woman, but I cant do what we are made to do, so I need help. That  is a hard hard sentence to say. I dont know why it set me off the way it did, but I think it was just the way it was said. You dont have to help others in this life, but at least have couth when saying what you think. Its completely understandable that not everyone will be ok with donating things or helping others physically..It.Is.Ok. but have a heart when replying...dont say absolutely not...like there is no way in hell..she may as well said EW. *sigh* 
end of rant. Im sure she is a sweet girl, and this isnt personal to her, just people like that. lesson of the day..

put yourself in others shoes and think before you speak..

wow, i feel better..the fire is simmering now..lol

hope everyone has a greeeeeeeeeat day...