Thursday, February 16, 2012

you know how the time flies..

ahh Adele. i love her voice. it makes me happy. even though she sings about not happy things..? ok maybe im wierd...
so whats up with me? I sound like a frog today, thank you sore throat! (Jim says sexy frog but whatever) silly boy...we had a wonderful Valentines day..:) After work, he gave me a valentines charm for my Pandora bracelet, lots of kisses, and took me to Shipps Harbour Grill in Perdido which is ahhhhhmazing. *yum* needless to say THOSE calories werent logged..woops..hehehe Our first married Valentines Day. I still adore him and he gives me butterflies. yep, im good..
Still on my weight loss journey. Today is weigh day so we will see, but so far im 5 pounds lighter..havent figured out where theyre coming from but hey...whatever..lol Im walking daily. Ive upped it to 1.5 miles. The dogs love it. (well Ridge the Golden Retriever does..my minPin Dixie? no way..her short little legs get tired ithink. but when we get home, she has this amazing accomplished smile on her little face..its adorable)
Its a rainy day at the beach. bleh. 
On a higher note...*drumroll* Im FINALLY going back to college for degree number two! :D something ive been wanting to do for years now. After a bit of debaucle with the university i first went to, my transcript in on its way to my new school. A Bachelors in Healthcare Administration is on my horizon. I can see it in the tiny distance. Im excited. A little terrified. All happy. Im proud. Go me Go me..good things to come
Next month is Endometriosis Awareness Month. Sadly this disease isnt spoken out on as breast cancer, child cancer, etc. Its sad. Ive ordered some pamphlets and hope to educate at least ONE person. No, endometriosis will not kill you. But it will make you darn sure feel like you are dying. Oh and then theres that whole take-away-your-ability-to-have-kids thing..yea. that bites. I digress, no bitterness allowed today. On this rainy day, i will be happy. I will appreciate all the good things in my life. 
Random note of the day: my soldier from AAUSS is coming home in 2 weeks! Yay Terry! If you dont know what that is, its Adopt a US Soldier.  (http://adoptaussoldier.org/) you can adopt a deployed soldier. become his penpal, send care packages, pretty much whatever you want. it is NOT A DATING SITE. Dont go on there thinking you can meet mr soldier prince charming. we are here to help them. Make time better. got it? ok..;) So i requested a happily married male or female soldier from Alabama and got a Navy guy from birmingham. Hes awesome. He is on his 3rd TOD and in two weeks hes returning. Ive even spoken to his wife. They have 3 kids and are a beautiful family. Ive sent him 3 care packages and countless emails. He thanks me, but I feel like hes doing so much more than Im doing for him. So anyway, its free to join, free to email. If you choose to send packages, they really dont cost much either. It makes me feel good. Our soldiers need what we can do for them after all. When he returns I may adopt a different one, who knows. Its good to do good in this crazy world and agree with the war or not, these guys and girls are over there putting life and limb on the line, so kudos to them all. 

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

random ramblings..

so i feel neglectful of said blog...
but life has been kind lately. happy. carefree. Its good..:)
lets see..update update...
I have currently lost *drumroll* 4 lbs! yes yes i know it may pale in comparison to those saying theyve lost like 100 lbs..BUT this is MY 4 lbs. My 4lbs not on this body anymore. My 4lbs that i worked hard to get off this body. Mine. So im proud. Im trying to use it as motivation to continue on. Im one week in. No sweet tea has actually been easier than i thought! weird! I now drink Unsweet tea..(man, my granddad would be rolling in his grave to hear that one) and i havent had fried food in a week. I walk my crazy ass pups daily and i do Wii games daily. Im trying to do it healthily. No fad diets. Just changes that make weight come off slow and steady. I had a friend the other day 'well im on the hcg diet and ive lst like 15 lbs this month!'..um yea..youre eating 500 cal a day and when you DO stop the hcg youre going to gain a WHOLE lotta weight back so by all means..keep truckin there grasshopper...anyway I digress. Life is going good. Im slowly and surely losing weight the HEALTHY way and im ok with that.
Im supposed to do a 5K this weekend but itll all depend on this massive blister ive gotten since ive been running. ouch. running on the beach will not be easy if my foot hurts. eeep. 


oh yea, Shameless plug: my husband and I have a ONE YEAR wedding anniversary coming up (insert awwwwww) and we are entered to win a cruise..or cash..hey id be happy with either..on litemix.com..go to cutest couples and put in your info (only have to do this once and tehy DO NOT spam your email..no worries) vote for number 33!! :) thats us..vote as often as you like..its until Next Tuesday, valentines day...share with your friends..help a girl out...


alright back to work i go. sorry for boring post but hey, no news is good news right? :) 

Thursday, February 2, 2012

Love it or lose it...

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see that? thats MY weight loss ticker. Im down 4 lbs. Now that may not seem much to some, but to me? Thats inspiration. Thats another push. Thats another smile on my face. Thats ME getting to where i can LOVE myself.
Im a work in progress. (arent we all?) I have a husband that adores me and treats me like a princess. But i need to love myself even a quarter of what he does and life will be better. I dont hate myself. I look in the mirror honestly and think, well it could be worse.....but it could be better. So here i am. According to my WII at home, ive lost 4 pounds. 4. you want to know my sad little secret though? 



I have no idea how much i weigh.


im terrified of that number. Im scared to look. I go to the doctors office and say no no dont tell me. I get on the Wii, she asks if i want to know my current weight? um..negative. Why does it terrify me? ESPECIALLY since im doing something about it? I think im scared that its going to break my heart. Make me cry. Its worse than my fear of spiders. That number should not dictate my self. I talked to my Jim about it and his stand point? 'Thats stupid babe. you need to know your starting point so you can watch the numbers go down'. Point for Jim. he wins. he working today, so ya know what, hes right. I think it would make a HUGE difference in my self esteem if i KNEW what i was losing. So tonight when that Wii voice asks if i want to know? ill click yes. If i fall apart? Oh well. I will pick myself up and work THAT much harder to be who i want to be. Im 5'11..a healthy weight for me is 175. I wear a size 18. There. I said it. Im balanced. I have t say i am lucky in that respect. Weight evens out on me due to my height. I dont have a massive booty and tiny legs. a spare tire and tiny waist. Im even all over. So that much is good right? So go me. 
oh side note: next Saturday Im doing the Sweetheart 5K at the Hangout in Gulf Shores. If you live in the area you should too. Its charity and its good for ya. Who knows? May start me on a whole new path. Either way, Im doing it. Skinny people on tv? Those oh so wonderful Dr Peppers? and those girls wearing bikinis on the beach here? (yea i live at the beach, which is HORRIBLE for self esteem mind you..lol) you can SUCK IT! cause here i come..bitches...:)