Gotta Promise Not to Stop When I say When..

Apparently I have been told people enjoy reading my blog..wow..I find this very inspiring really. my posts go down to a trickle when there is nothing to report, so for taht I am sorry,,, We have been collecting things for our impending Adoption Fund Yard Sale in September. The amount of things that people have donated astounds me. It warms my heart to see all of the care our friends have for us. Truly. Thank you All. I have organized what we have and am expecting more stuff soon. WHEW! Going to be a big ol yardsale hopefully! Our current mission is to get up the $950 needed to complete the homestudy, as without it there is not step we CAN take. I try to look at this how Jim says..he tells me to look at it like eating an elephant..has to be done one bite at the time.. hes right. I try my best to not think about all the immense and expensive steps we have to take to be parents. Its overwhelming if I do. Sometimes I cant help it though. Im human. It seems every day I see another person on facebook announcing their pregnancy...or newborn pics..or her belly..its hard. And i feel rather alone in it. People try to empathize, but they cant...so I feel alone. there i said it. I, Dana Graves, admits my weakness..*shhh* I hate to see pregnant women. I hate their posts. their pictures. Their quotes thanking God for 'their gift'. Wheres my gift? What did I do to piss God off? But yet Im happy for them..sometimes it doesnt make sense. Does it ever? I guess not. I pass time with my school, which is going good mind you. Im looking at a 3.8 GPA, which i NEVER couldve said while as TSU..lol.. I have started doing like Leanne Tuoy on the Blind Side..when she counts her steps of things..her beginning is always One Mississippi..and she was right. steps..everywhere..I hate this. I hate the person it makes me sometimes, but its me. This is my path I was given and surely Id have not been given it had I not been strong enough to handle it right? So onward we travel.. One Mississippi....