Some things...

So not the news I wanted. Birth mom didnt show up. Lawyer cant get her to call. So today...when that sweet baby girl is released...she will leave with DCF. The lawyer will stick with it a week to contact the birth mom. So instead of leaving to a loving home, she will go to a foster for at least a week. Bullshit. Im sorry but this birth mom needs to get her shit straight for ONE day. Just one to make sure her daughter has a better life. She deserves better. Even if she doesnt choose us. Just choose. Choose life. Not DCF. More unknown for this tiny girl youve already let be born addicted. So now I pray that she contacts the lawyer. Please. Im mad. So angry. And I hate that. Im sad. Ive run out of tears for the day. Im pissed. Im hurt. But Im trying to take a deep breath and keep going. So onward. *sigh*